I'm in a relationship with a treadmill

So I have been dating an amazing man for almost 10 months and I feel we are moving and going no where. Just like a treadmill. You get on you move you work out your together for periods of time but you don't end up anywhere. The only thing that seems to be moving is time. Lately I just seem I guess you could say annoyed with the situation. I love him so much and there isn't much I wouldn't do for him but I won't put up with the lack of progress anymore. He is so proud to be lazy, he is openly admits his laziness. He basis our relationship off of how it was with his ex (which now I am starting to think she isn't as bad as he makes her seem) or he uses his parents. Why can't he just form his own opinion of our relationship based on our relationship? Don't even get me started on our sex life or lack of I should say. I have never met a man who uses his penis as little as he does. Any attempt on my end to spice up our love life, to add extra romance, to feel as if I am not on a treadmill he shoots it down. He becomes frustrated, agitated, annoyed. It's like today I showed him a book I got from my mom that talks about touch and how intimate touch is and his response was "Why do you always got to bring that stuff up when I come over?" My response was "Repetion is everything and that they say it takes the human brain 21 times of hearing something before they can learn it." I then left the room. I am thankful for my time with him I really am I just feel we are at a forever stand still. He doesn't care either. It doesn't bother him either, yet when he notices something is bothering me he doesn't like what I have to say. Relationships are suppose to be about compromise yet I seem to be the only one willing to try and to make changes. I really hope our treadmill of a relationship breaks soon and we are thrown hard into the wall of the next step. I just have to keep telling myself I Love him.

I'm Back!

Wow! I can't believe how much time has gone by since my last blog. I have had so many thoughts and ideas I just didn't have the time to sit down and blog. The house got super crazy. The computer and computer desk got lost in a mess of papers because my sweet children when they don't know where to put something it ends up on the desk. I uncovered it enough to use it but now I have a tote to the side of the desk that needs my attention. I have taken on babysitting jobs for very little pay but if it helps keep gas in the car for the month I'm ok. I have made lots of changes to the apartment which the landlord may or may not approve of but who cares. The changes have allowed a lot more room in the kitchen, now I am thinking about moving the computer desk into the kitchen to open up room in the living room. I mean after all when you are watching kids it is better to give them more play room in the living room then kitchen right? My blankets are coming along well. I still keep life is an adventure stuck in my head. Lately the adventurous road seems to be filled with speed bumps but I am trucking along just the same. I am not sure to the protocol of blogging if there is a limit of posts a day or not but now that the computer is free every time I have a blog idea I will be blogging. Until the next blog.