The avalanche is starting

I have lived in my place for 3yrs. I have put up with a tight space, high rent, poor water pressure and lack of a lawnmower and screens on my windows. When I moved in I had awesome neighbors and they moved away and the place sat empty for awhile then they moved back. They again moved the place sat and I again got neighbors who were also awesome then they too moved. While the place sat empty I became accustomed to having the property to myself and when people would come around to look I'd show them the place. It wasn't my job either. Well now I have neighbors and I am not happy about it. So there is one rock tumbling down, then my landlord thinks my boyfriend David is living with me just because he's over all the time I mean we're dating so wouldn't that mean we spend time together? So now the stress of that has caused another rock. I have started doing babysitting from my home for very little money and I really don't have any kids but add them and my kids especially this week since it's spring break it equals chaos! My oldest daughter Ally is ssssssssuuuuuuuuuuuccccccccccccccchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh a drama queen! And she admits nothing even when she gets caught and it's a meltdown whenever you say something to her. Tonight we all tried to dye eggs and that was a joke. The eggs got done though. So there is another rock. Pat is homeless again and has turned to me for help. David is fine with it as long as it helps with Codi. I am already feeling anxiety over it. I want to help him but I know I am going to hear about it. I am trying to talk my landlord into working with Pat for a 2 bedroom or work with me on a 4 bedroom but I am not getting anywhere. Boom another rock. The car, money, etc. etc. etc. each one being a rock. There for an avalanche. I know there is people out there going thru more then me, people out there with less then me so I shouldn't complain, I am trying not to complain but with the avalanche coming it's hard not too. I am strong at least so I have been told. I had dental work done the other day and ever since I have just been a space cadet. I am grateful for what I have, I love helping people, I am glad to be reconnected with my daughter I just am unthankful for the stress that seems to come with everything. I am hoping my new neighbors turn out good, I find such a thickness of anxiety inside and I feel as if I have to walk on pins and needles so to speak. Well until the next blog.